Posted by johnnyj on September 9, 2006, at 20:44:24
In reply to Re: Off Remeron update, posted by jules354 on September 9, 2006, at 17:44:44
Hello everyone.
Well Jules, you and I are having similiar experiences. However, I have other issues. I see that some of us have done well and I am happy for them, keep fighting if you can!
Me, well, I stopped sleeping about 6 weeks ago. I think I posted that I had to start something and that was lunesta. Unfortunatley, the anxiety and restlessness has been very bad. I started having ocd issues again and that has been very, very hard.
I do believe I have a good dx now and that is anxiety/ocd(obessive thoughts), but no compulsions that are distinct like hand washing, etc. I was somewhat relieved to understand that I was not purely crazy, but just suffering from ocd. I have been researching and reading on things and I was SHOCKED to see myself so clearly in what I have read. It does seem that with ocd and panic/anxiety meds are almost always necessary. I am figthing accepting this and what little sleep I can get on lunesta keeps me just in the "barely ok" state. Therapy will be long and hard. I have no panic attacks just a nagging anxiety that prevents me from enjoying things. I get some relief with weight lifting but aerobic stuff makes it worse. The front of my head is "activated" I just don't get the feeling of sleep or nodding off anymore. After the luenesta wears off I awake to my head being "on" just like before it knocked me out.
I am in the process of accepting myself for who I am right now and I am not going to beat myself up over this (or at least try and not obssess over it!).
One thing I have found out is that remeron can make some ocd issues worse. I had that experience but at least then I slept. I sometimes hope it is just withdrawal still but I know part of it is not because I had this problem before and it is complex. I have wondered if long term use of remeron has done something also but we will never know. We just have to go on from where we are at.
I will not feel bad starting something else even though I am terrified because of what remeron did to me. But, maybe, just maybe, I can get some peace with something else. My pdoc says I was never treated correctly and that is why my response has been low.
take care all and get healthy
cheers
johnnyj
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