Posted by Christ_empowered on November 10, 2014, at 9:01:34
OK. So, its like this...
I'm not well-liked (read: stigmatized to the max, but I have "upper class" people behind me. I put "upper class" in " " because social class is so relative..."upper class" around here could be "respectable" elsewhere) around here...
...but I'm stuck here. Moving would require a job, which requires credentials, and also requires...well, the opportunity to enter the workforce, which is hard when you've been out of commission during what could/should be the most productive years of your life (19-30).
So, I'm unemployed. I get disability. I live with my "upper class" people. When the people aren't around, the neighbors yell at me...all kindsa fun stuff, too. Some of it sexual (yes, I'm queer, in The Bible Belt), some of it about my psych history, etc. etc.
Part of it is social class issues. This is mostly a lower-middle, middle-class neighborhood. Then there's my people. I used to be considered "poor wh*t* tr*sh," and now I drive a good enough car, wear good clothes, live "too comfortably," etc. etc. etc.
Ugh. I want to do something, to move on, but...how? Where? doing what?
I have loads of credits. I'm actually pursuing an undergrad degree online, and that's going well. Keeps my mind busy, if nothing else.
I'm just...sick...of the stigma. I filed a medical board complaint against an ex-shrink and there's been retaliation. Turns out, I need to "learn my place in society." Wow. The south is fun.
I feel like its the 70s, and I just got sent into the community from a state mental hospital. Except its 2014, and I've never been to a state mental hospital.
I'm a Born Again Christian. Its weird..its like, you're queer, but you can't have The Sex anymore. Whatever. My Christianity pisses people off. I guess its cool to be gay, but not Christian. Or gay and some kinda liberal Christian, like PCUSA or Episcopalian or something.
Blah blah blah...I'm ranting....
...I'm just getting frustrated. Weirdly enough, I may be getting frustrated just as things are simmering down considerably. Oh, and the neighbors...when they're not screaming about my queer-ness and talking about my psych history, scream about "Federal Warrants," as in:
"go pick up your warrant!," "get ready for prison!," and "he's got a warrant on him!"
Kinda...wow...not fun.
Ramble ramble...how are YOU doing?
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