Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 21, 2011, at 0:40:15
In reply to Re: I want to move out. Can someone be my specialist, posted by Christ_empowered on August 20, 2011, at 16:12:33
I find it very difficult to take care of my self because I have so much self-loathing and hatred for my choices I made its not easy to look at my self and say "your ok".
Anyways my parents don't have the money for an apartment for me. There not rich but there not poor. We live in small house in middle class neighborhood. Nothing really exciting. I am grateful I do have a car though and some NA friends. But I am ungrateful for what I don't have. I wrote a gratitude list because my sponser told me too because he thought it would make more grateful for things I have. It's ok I have it hanging in my desk in my room. I have a bigger and more important list of things I don't have. I'm have a pessimistic additude sometimes. But no, my parents can't afford me an apartment. That's why I'm looking into disablity and MHMR in tarrant county texas. I wish I could stay with someone here on the boards but I'm just so f*ck*ng like a pussy and I'm afraid I might cause someone more problems than I myself cause. I wish I could just hold someone and they would tell me its gonna be ok. I have just so much that I have thought problems and I just want someone to rescue me out of it.
I am grateful for everyone that posts to my posts here on dr.bob.org. Thank you for your advice in imput.It looks pretty much im going to have to work my way out of my problems.
Regards,
Matt
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