Posted by Deneb on October 4, 2010, at 2:09:33
Sigh. I'm feeling like a complete loser again.
People used to have high hopes for me. I used to get good grades. No one doubted that I would go to university. It was a given for me.
When I first saw pdoc, she even suggested medical school for me.
But alas, I made all the wrong choices, lost my motivation, intelligence, drive and confidence. Now I am 28 years old and unemployed with a lousy good for nothing general science degree. I don't know how to grew to hate school. I have an aversion to studying now.
I know it might be too much to ask to be really special and successful, but come on, toss me a bone, can't I just be successful enough to at least support myself? Can't I at least have a normal life?
I shouldn't be where I am in life right now. Come on, even people with just a high school diploma are more successful than me!
I wish I was smarter and more hard working. I wish I had motivation and drive. I wish I could make my parents and extended family proud of me. I wish I became a doctor or became a chemistry professor or something.
Instead here I am, still living with my parents at 28, with no real life social life, no career, no achievements.
It's not fair. Why do I have so many problems? My sister turned out just fine. What's the matter with me? I've had problems my whole entire life. I've never been abused or anything, why did I turn out so messed up?
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