Posted by Noa on July 8, 2008, at 9:18:28
In reply to Re: I'm back » gardenergirl, posted by Noa on July 8, 2008, at 8:59:11
Part of this message is from my post in response to Coral over at 2000, and am re-posting it here to give you an update.
Thank you ALL for all the support--and the help in 'reframing' when I was in my panic spiral last week--it was of immense help. I'm still struggling with the whole thing but nothing like last week. Not panicky but still not feeling anywhere near ready to face interviews (that is, if there were any to face); mood still kind of low, but not as low as last week and no suicidal feelings now; occasional crying and irritability; still having erratic sleep patterns; eating again (and have to be careful not to swing in the other direction!); not feeling very social, but ok with certain trusted people; not much focus for many things, spending a lot of time diverting myself with Sudoku, etc..
Here is the cross post--
Hi Coral,
Thank you. Yes, I've continued my therapy all these years, and it's a great help now.
I'm doing better than I was last week when I first posted. Some "healthy" dissociation finally kicked in to protect me from the raw shock and panic and all that. I'm trying to get out and do something every day--nothing big, just something to have a goal outside my home no matter how small the goal is. And the past 3 days, I've managed to have daily social outings with supportive friends. Two meals out, and one silly, funny movie (Get Smart) which I enjoyed a lot.
Yesterday, my social "event" was dinner with a friend with whom I used to work, whom I hadn't spent time with in a long time, although we both had good intentions to get together (she still works for the same organization but had transferred worksites a few years ago). I really like her and we worked so well together, plus we have a past connection from when we were much younger. And she shared some sad personal news that got me out of my own worries for a bit. But it wasn't like a total misery-fest or anything. Thankfully, despite what she's going through she is doing pretty well--I think she seemed like a good role model for me in that she seems to have good perspective, is coping well--but genuinely so, not a fake kind of "I'm fine" kind of thing--honest about it being hard, etc. but still keeping things in perspective.
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