Posted by your#1fan on November 22, 2007, at 23:32:49 [reposted on November 25, 2007, at 3:07:21 | original URL]
In reply to Re: I realied i've been hibrinating for 2 years scary., posted by stargazer2 on November 22, 2007, at 23:04:33
you know i think that what maybe you and me have done is "placed" ourselves in a reality of our own. Because maybe i didnt want to deal with what was happening, i mean i functioned like a human being, eat, talk to friends, but my real self, was not there. It was just i was "existing"
All of my old intrest, its like it changed my personality.
In 2005 something happened to me that was, well alot of confidecial things. I just could not take it. I started to just not want to go to family functions.
Its like i left myself behind....a memory of what i was. Now im looking back on it. Its very nostaglic. You know, its actaully doing with contact with my family. I left, and when things get old, new things come, like new families. Its like im looking at what i used to be, and here i am now.
What has caused this, i just figured it out is fear, well for me it is. Because i dont want to deal with having to make descisions that i dont want. But maybe if i made that descion.....my life wouldnt be like this. I wouldnt really feel relationship wise isolated.
There where alot of things that went on during 2004-05. Thats what caused me to run away from it all. And now i regret it, but still today, im still afraid, but "just do it". You may have some jerkin around, everything turns upside down.
Well....lets pick it up in 2008.
your fan
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