Posted by your#1fan on November 21, 2007, at 23:14:26 [reposted on November 25, 2007, at 3:07:20 | original URL]
Listen, im in school i feel im with reality. But i just looked at some stuff, papers and some old things of mine that where back in 2004, listen i had a nostalgic feeling. But at the same time, i didnt know what the hell happened for 2 years. I mean i left my ambitions behind, and i have turned into something that i never i wanted to be.
I want to go back into the past right now. But i would have too go through mental relapses that i got through. What the hell happen since 2005? there is some kind of glick that happened to my brain. I still feel like its 2005. I just im walking around in slow motion. Its scary.
What and why did i do.......there are somethings that happened that are confidencial that happened during that time that i dont want to disclose. Thats what put my brain into a hibrination. I mean i had a job, went to school. I mean its just all these things have happened since then.
Its like im realizing, i just woke from a sleep. From May 2005 till now. What happened?
i cant, i have am going to really get back up to date.
I dont know how to explain this mental state.
I need to get reality, and get with life. Get on that sattle and get going! where i am in life, i feel behind.
Its loss of motivation, thats it. All my old interest im not intrested anymore. Im on Prozac but its a diffrent kind of motivation, like intresting things. I've been inhibited. Too less dopamine, and too much vacacy of some nuerons.
What do you think?
poster:your#1fan
thread:796923
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