Posted by Philip Burke on November 17, 2007, at 16:58:48 [reposted on November 17, 2007, at 19:26:43 | original URL]
In reply to Major depression, posted by Fivefires on November 17, 2007, at 15:29:06
> I've been ignored or abandoned by at least five family members, friend, doctors and their front office staffs, therapist, and caseworker, all in the past two weeks. I feel unnecessary, invaluable, unloved, and unimportant. I feel like a doormat. I can't, no, I don't want to get out of bed. If I get up and out, I'm afraid they'll knock me down again. There are some I could avoid, but there are more that I love. I can't stay away from what I love. My love is stronger than my intelligence I guess. When did I become everyone's doormat? I truly don't get it!!! I felt the onset of this and asked for help wks ago. Now each day I've gotten worse and today am just consumed in this horrible depression. Wish I could get some help. But, the criteria for getting in a hospital is .. unowhat. I'm not going that route! I could end up becoming what the people above already treat me like, a literal inanimate person in a wheelchair set in the corner and ignored. And, why do I love so much? It doesn't seem to come back to me. Well anyway, this is where I am. Will go back to bed and curl up again. Don't want to bother anyone via phone call or anything. Scared to as they said they're too busy. I knew you wouldn't mind listening to me. I'm so sorry I can't see their ignorance and let it roll off my shoulders and not hurt me.
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> 5fYou don't have to be suicidal to go into psychiatric hospital. I suggest you go to the ER, tell them you have been chronically and severely depressed and you insist that you have to be admitted. Why have so many people in your life rejected you? If you are seriously ill, you need help and must get it. Have you gotten any kind of help before, like medication and psychotherapy?
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