Posted by Larry Hoover on February 18, 2007, at 11:50:48
In reply to Mindfulness/ Son update/ Snowshovelling...... » Larry Hoover, posted by Kath on February 14, 2007, at 19:43:34
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> > If you can do that on your own, you would likely be amazed at what you can do when taught by someone. It really is person-to-person transmission of this wisdom that keeps it alive, and keeps it meaningful/useful. Keep your ears open for a mindfulness meditation class. Your caregivers might know of one, BTW.
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> ***I'll try to see what I can find. I think even the amount that I've been doing helps me with the panicky feeling I sometimes get about being anxious, worried, afraid. I get panicky about feeling those things. Being aware of my breathing & knowing that ME and my BREATHING are REAL. The thoughts I'm thinking create the feelings so if I can watch the thoughts & bring myself back to the reality of my in-breath & out-breath, I can to some extent, return my feelings to a sort of neutral place. Being able to do this seems to help me feel like I have some sort of control & that seems to help me feel 'safe' or something.******Sounds to me like you have grasped the concepts with ease. That's really all it's about, in the end.
> > Not like that area in NY state, no. But I had to drive to Toronto in it this morning for hospital stuff. At least the afternoon commute was light traffic.
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> *****If you know your schedule ahead of time & want to meet for tea after your hospital stuff, or for lunch, let me know. You can babblemail me if you like. I missed the PB party so I missed meeting you-all.*****These days, all I think about is getting the heck home again, as soon as I can manage it. I am glad I went to PB-Toronto, but if it hadn't been so close by, that wouldn't have happened for me.
> I'm glad you were gentle. I hurt bad.
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> *******Larry, is there anything that helps you? Have you tried accupuncture?*****Well, I took some opiate to get home last week, but I had such a horrible reaction last fall that I fear them, somewhat. Really, all I have is mindfulness. Yes, I did some acupuncture, and I was doing better during that period, but there were so many things influencing me I cannot discriminate the effect of the acupuncture itself. I think it was a positive influence. I had faith in it, in any case. I do not have the energy to go and get some, just now.
> > I'm happy your efforts on your son's behalf have paid off so handsomely. He's lucky to have you.
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> *******Thanks Larry. And I accept the compliment....yup - he IS lucky to have me LOL.Good for you, accepting the compliment. I learned to turn them aside, as a child. I still have to consciously accept them, some times.
> Today he phoned me & asked if I'd like to get together with him & GF to do something for Valentine's Day. I thought that was pretty darned cool!! So we went out for tea & cheesecake!! It was their second day at their friend's house. They say it's going OK & he is feeling OK about it.
That is a happy change of affairs. I'm glad for you all.
> Tomorrow, he has his first appt with the HOPE Program psychiatrist. He is OK with his family being at his various appointments, so it works that he sees her first, then GF & I will join them. My hubby (son's step-Dad) is at work, so won't be there. I'm hoping that the psychiatrist will see fit to fill out the ODSP (disability) forms. He certainly isn't anywhere near being able to work at this point. Friday, son & his case-worker meet with the Crosslinks person(re: housing). Yes, I have set up a lot for him & the good thing is that he's being totally involved in a positive way, so that's good.
I'll babblemail you about the ODSP. I do volunteer advocacy work around ODSP cases.
> I send positive thoughts your way Lar. I hope your medical stuff went well today for you.Thanks. We're just trying to rule out other significant pathologies (e.g. malignancy), so we can focus our attention on the neuropathy without distractions.
> I shovelled our driveway today. Usually my husband does it, but he had his gallbladder out 2 1/2 weeks ago, so my edict is: NO SHOVELLING YET. Soooooo I did it! Enjoyed it actually.Snow shovelling. The bain of my existence. I am personally taking credit/responsibility for the historically low snowfalls over the last two years (tongue-in-cheek, but I did a lot of prayer around it). I've really only had one true shovelling event this entire winter, so far. I have to shovel with one hand, so it's an ordeal. Momma Nature's helping me in any way she can.
> Take care Larry. luv, KathThanks, Kath. You too.
Lar
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