Posted by wishingstar on January 30, 2007, at 11:51:01
In reply to those with personality disorders...., posted by alesta on January 30, 2007, at 8:58:39
One of my diagnoses over the years has been borderline. I've gotten a lot of diagnoses, and who knows which are really right, but I do see some of the qualities in myself.
I'd hate to think that others are disgusted by me, and if they are, that this is a normal reaction. Thats hard for me to accept. I know I'm not perfect, but I do try my best and any behavior that I do recognize later as having been manipulative, out of sorts, etc has always, always come out of incredible pain and no idea how to better handle it, and absolutely never a desire to hurt anyone or act manipulatively.
I do understand that the behaviors of those with perosnality disorders can be difficult to understand, frustrating, and probably incredibly maddening at times. For those who have grown up with personality-disordered parents, the scars left can be substantial. But I think its important to realize also that there are some people on this board who have these diagnoses themselves and are trying to improve, but it isnt always easy. So a convresation about how to handle personality disorder behaviors I can absolutely understand, but to call us disgusting and maddening is hurtful to me. I'm trying my best but it's difficult to hang on to self-esteem and self-confidence when so many terrible things are written about these groups. It often makes me wonder why I keep trying to get better, if it's just a hopeless cause anyway (the idea that borderlines never get better)?
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