Posted by LlurpsieBlossom on December 14, 2006, at 8:48:55
In reply to Re: Number 1 reason why I shouldn't OD, posted by Deneb on December 13, 2006, at 23:58:11
> It will lead to MORE, not less guilt. If I OD and get sick, I might end up in the hospital again and waste a hospital bed. I would be taking away resources from a person who needs it.
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> It's so much easier to just NOT OD in the first place! The guilt will fade. I do not want to be stuck in the hospital again. I do not want to be sick, as much as I think I deserve it. It does no good whatsoever! It doesn't make anything right. It makes things wrong.
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> I need to remember that.
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> Deneb*Deneb, I feel like you are understanding yourself better and better these days. I'm really proud of you for thinking and writing these things. Maybe the next step in your education about yourself can be learning about how to help yourself in a crisis.
It's important to build yourself a safety net when your thinking is clear.
Think of it like a toolchest, or a kit for natural disasters (I lived in S. California and I had a set of stuff that was in a bag in the event of an earthquake, for example)
Here are some things that I have in my toolchest:
1.Phone numbers
a)people that I can call just to chat about nothing in particular, keeping me busy, and therefore safe (incl. 3 friends, 2 brothers)
b)people I can call and tell them that I feel sad/bad (includes husband, and 1 friend)
c)people I can call and tell them that I am scared that I am not safe from myself (includes T, husband, crisis counsellor, hotline)
2. Things to distract
Books of poetry. Short, easy to read. TV. Tabloids- the trashier the better. I only need an IQ of 80 to enjoy these. Violin. Psycho-babble. Housework. School work. long walks, or other exercise.3. Things to soothe
Cooking projects. Hot bath with epsom salts. my down blankie wrapped around me like an enchilada, baking on the couch while I watch the shopping channel in zoned out stares. Hot tea, hot cocoa, hot (decaf) coffee, meditation, medication, staring at my disco-lit X-mas tree. Looking at my photo albums. Calling my husband and demanding that he be nice to me! stretching. shopping without buying- bookstores, or stores with scented stuff. going to cafe and people watching while you sip. Hiding out in muffled's cave. ice cream.These are a few ideas. Write down your own versions, and keep them handy for when you need them. Often, just having a plan will reduce your anxiety incredibly. Hopefully your next crisis will not be so intense (hopefully there will be no more crises), but it's good to have a plan nevertheless.
your friend,
-Ll
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