Posted by corafree on October 6, 2006, at 13:35:41
In reply to Re: I'm Worried :( trigger » corafree, posted by Phillipa on October 5, 2006, at 21:23:51
No Phillipa, I'm really really NOT okay. Thank you for asking!
I've been 'acting as if' I was okay and almost convincing myself. But, I had the feeling my friends here 'could see otherwise', and if they did, they were right. Were you, or anyone?
Too many losses. Think prob' need go back on an AD, I guess Effexor-XR was the best of all I've been on. It always takes some initial adjusting to it tho', and each time I've been on it, it has worked a little differently. But, of all tried, I'd have to say it was the best at keep my emotions and anxiety under control. Think I may need a break for my emotions. Becoming overwhelmed and feeling lost and feeling like a failure.
P here very difficult to even reach. Could take a couple wks just to get an emergency appt.
I've been focusing on anything or anyone as a diversion for what I'm feeling, which isn't bad, but I think 'my emotions' are breaking through and rising to the surface, and are just too much to handle right now. I'm so bitterly lonely here and there's no way out of my living situation. I've tried.
I just didn't want to 'complain' or 'need' or 'be rescued', as I feel like I've used up all my 'get out of jail free cards' here on the site.
I feel selfish to ask for help again and again.
I just realized yesterday I've been w/ PB for 6yrs. I couldn't believe it! Doesn't that say something is really wrong w/ me? I'm sorry if that offends anyone. Shouldn't I be giving by now, instead of always taking?
stuck, cf
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