Posted by Dinah on August 14, 2006, at 11:04:53
My guess might be self esteem. Or it could be relationships.
It may not seem this way on Babble, but I'm terrified to be among people. My husband and I have a mutually beneficial arrangement. He enjoys being among people so when a parent needs to accompany my son, he does it. Or when we go somewhere, I cling to him and let him do the active socializing while I smile.
I'm talking about totally social situations.
As luck would have it, my son really wants to attend a social event that my husband will be unable to attend. We've answered we're going to attend, but I'm terrified.
The things that most people would have no problem with seem huge obstacles to me. Where do I park? Where do I enter? What should I wear? It's casual, so if I had a pair of jeans or something, I guess I'd wear that. But I don't. No power on earth will convince me to expose my knock knees to people I don't wish to think ill of me by wearing shorts.
Is it ok to stand a bit off from everyone else? I don't wish to intrude where I'm not welcome. I don't want to be stand offish either. I don't know what to say. I'm not up on popular culture after the early nineties. I don't know any of the local gossip.
Overall, I'd rather get a colonoscopy than attend a social event with people that I'd rather think not badly about me.
poster:Dinah
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