Posted by corafree on August 10, 2006, at 0:41:30
In reply to Re: I'm afraid of recovery and losing you all » corafree, posted by TexasChic on August 7, 2006, at 20:07:13
<But, maybe we have problems like we do because we are just so much more in touch with the feelings of others. Maybe this is a strength or an inate ability that we should be proud of. We just have to figure out how to turn it off so it doesn't hurt us.>
Yep. Rebuilding a life w/o loved ones who deserted me because I was depressing to be around or difficult to console, is hard. I'm all alone.
I've always loved 'passionately' and how do I FORGIVE for 'bailing on me when I needed them the most'.
While they've nearly paid off the mortgage on their home, bought an RV, and built up savings, I've been 'standing still' wishing for a hand. How do I forgive them?
Many aren't interested in my love or friendship anymore. They've moved on somewhere I'm not.
So far, those here, are curious ... expressions on there faces look like they're thinking 'oh now she's psychotic and thinks she's all better'.
If I'm happy, they think I've gone 'over some edge' and are reluctant to join me in it. I've seen and felt it. I will behave in a funny/positive way. They misunderstanding due to having developed a preconceived idea of me.
Sorry; repeating myself.
Anyway, 'trying to communicate w/ those I love that are still in my life', in a new way, and being understood, isn't happening.
I have to explain. (They look at me like 'yeah right?'. It hurts.)
Feels like you take a step back.
The journey back feels insurmountable.
I'm less 'physically fit'.
Strength is being called upon big time.
tks, cf
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