Posted by Deneb on July 10, 2006, at 22:31:36
In reply to Re: Why bother doing anything, I'll only fail *trigger » Deneb, posted by frida on July 10, 2006, at 22:23:14
My Mom doesn't understand. She never supports me. She continues to support my dependence on her.
Now I've grown up to be fearful of the world. I'm not confident in anything I do. My Mom keeps telling me of all the things I cannot do while at the same time telling me what a loser I am compared to other people. She actually tells me I'm a loser, in Chinese. She says I'm just like my Dad. She says everyone in my Dad's side of the family are lazy losers. She says some things are genetic.
:-(
Tomorrow I was going to get up early instead of sleep in until 3 p.m. I was going to go outside. Now I think I'll sleep and wait for death.
I don't want to live anymore. Life is too hard. Like my Mom says, I'm never going to make it in this world. I'm a loser. I will always get scraps.
I'm so sad. I just want to die.
Deneb*
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