Posted by Deneb on March 7, 2006, at 18:10:02
In reply to Re: How it went » Deneb, posted by James K on March 7, 2006, at 17:28:09
> ---I used to be shy even at a mcdonalds counter.
Me too. I still am.
> that stuff only goes away with practice.
I don't get a lot of practice.
> If you get confused about the 100 different kinds of coffee you can get these days, just tell you companion, or the person at the counter. "I'm confused by the 100 different kinds of coffee these days"
It would have been OK if it had been just the coffee blunder. I went into StarBucks and when I came out I was totally disoriented and didn't really know where I was. I still don't know downtown Ottawa even though I've lived here for about 12 years! I really don't go out much. When I do go out I only go to places I know. It was only after the guy left that I could get my bearings back. I'm such an idiot.
Right now I have a whole bunch of people who want to have coffee with me. I'm too stressed to do this again. I'm just going to decline them all.
> ----University was a problem for me too, but I WASN'T too stupid for it. Neither are you.
I hope you're right. I think you're right because I'm almost done, but I really don't feel like I've learned anything. My brain is leaky. I need all the things I've learned to integrate and help me understand new concepts and ideas, but my brain isn't doing that. It's just memorizing things until exam time and forgetting them afterwards.
> > I just want to crawl into a hole.
>
> I know the feeling. Honest I do (((deneb))). but don't let post anxiety deny the brave step you took today.I'll try James. Thanks for the hugs. (((James)))
I just wish I could calm down.
Deneb*
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