Posted by TexasChic on February 2, 2006, at 19:44:26
In reply to Re: I cried at work again today. » TexasChic, posted by ClearSkies on February 2, 2006, at 18:27:20
Thanks CS.
I got really upset again today, but had a strange episode of elation later!
When I got upset, I was talking to this girl who has been through a similiar situation with cold-shoulder-girl. She's a pretty negative person. She said she knew I'd eventually learn what 'they' were really like and the best thing I could do is get another job.
Nobody considers this job anything but a stepping stone, but its easy and the money is good. That is, OTHER than the summer layoff, which I will be part of this year (three months unemployment).
Today they asked who wanted to do the workshops this summer, which is a solution to the layoff and a chance to travel around the country and work with schools. I raised my hand, but I felt really leary. I'm afraid cold-shoulder-girl, who has done these in the past (but doesn't want to this year), may tell the guy not to pick me. She's already expressed she didn't think I could handle it because I have anxiety.
So with this and negative girl, I got really upset and cried and cried at my desk.
BUT... oddly enough, after I had my cry (about an hour's worth), I suddenly felt it all lifted off me. I still care, but I'm no longer so distraught. I even said hi to cold-shoulder-girl! Its like I was just over it. I just realized, I've gone through so-o-o much worse than this! I thought of my last couple of debacles and realized, this it NOTHING!
There's a whole segment at work of people who have nothing whatsoever to do with this. And I remembered something about the workshops. When the guy came in and asked who wanted to do them, he nodded to me in recognition, and I remembered that a while back cold-shoulder-girl had introduced me and recomended me for the workshops! I had completely forgotten! Plus, despite her behavior, she's still much, much saner than the people I've dealt with in the past. I half way feel like if I talk to her, I may be able to smooth things out at least a little bit. But up until now I was in no state to do this.
So we'll see what happens. I'm hanging in there. Everything happens for a reason!
-T
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