Posted by TexasChic on January 16, 2006, at 18:07:50
In reply to Did you clean up? » TexasChic, posted by LegWarmers on January 15, 2006, at 23:19:13
Well, I got started! Baby steps. I just have to keep it up now.
As for the deal with cuteboy, its funny, I was so worried about the worst case senerio, that I didn't think of the most LIKELY senerio, which was nothing happened. If anything he was friendlier than usual, but there's not really any way I can trust my judgement on that. It was such a relief when he came up and started chit chatting with me early this morning. I didn't realize how much I was expecting him to avoid me or something. Paranoia is such a weird and annoying thing.
I also realized what was really bothering me was the inferiority I felt towards the 21 year old size 4 chic. It makes me so mad that I couldn't get past that! Although it would be totally embarrassing for him to find out about my crush from someone else, it was the fear that he was involved with her that was really getting to me.
I guess my upcoming birthday has something to do with it. I'll be 36, which is just a step closer to 40. Yikes!
-T
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