Posted by alesta on January 3, 2006, at 12:20:20
i'm not sure if i should post to this site anymore. you see, i have been having serious problems with my current boyfriend. he made me a new promise to stop being a flirt, and i feel like i need to get back to being my loyal, nonflirty self, instead of trying to 'play his game'. not that i flirt here, but i do feel guilty for corresponding w/ guys here. reading tons of posts by them, etc. i feel like it isn't right to him. maybe i'll change my mind later..but i hope i don't get back to the 't*t for tat' mindset...it doesn't help anything anyway, and my character always was *the most* important thing to me. i felt the need to post these thoughts for some reason...why not..i post everything else lol. anyways, emotional fidelity is important to me. so maybe i should just respond to female posts. if he is willing to try, too. hope this doesn't sound lame to anyone. i'm going through *a lot* lately. suicidal thoughts, the worst. anyways, i hope you guys understand. i may just post to females from now on, when i get the chance.
i always gotta splain what's on my mind...:) i was in a hurry to type this so i hope it makes sense...
take care,:)
amy
poster:alesta
thread:594752
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20060102/msgs/594752.html