Posted by Deneb on January 1, 2006, at 18:55:52
to help myself out because I want to be able to help others.
I hate constantly posting bad things and making others feel bad. I want to make people feel good.
I always get help in a half-*ssed way. I start and then I get afraid and stop. I've got some psychological issues.
I don't even know how to respond to people who write back to me anymore. I don't know what to say, and how to explain myself.
I really need to get myself out of this "don't want to do anything" sort of rut. I get up at about 2:30pm only because I need to get out of bed. I go online, check stuff and just stare at the screen or put my head down on the desk. I try to play some computer games, but they are just boring. When my Mom is busy, I just head back to bed. I don't even brush my teeth sometimes now because I'm just too lazy to. I always brush my teeth! I mostly mope about all day either in front of the computer or the TV and go to bed at about 2am. I need some more energy! I decided to take my Wellbutrin again today cuz I want to do more than sleep all day!
I really need to start doing stuff, and caring about things. Classes start on the 4th.
Anyways, I'm going to overcome my fear of phones and answering machines by phoning for an appointment with pdoc2. He told me I could see him again if I needed to. Since so many people here think I need to, I will. I wish someone could phone for me. I'm afraid to call. :-(
I need to start this year off right. I'm also going to prove that I'm a normal stable person before the Babble Party. I don't want people to be afraid of me.
Deneb
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