Posted by alesta on November 8, 2005, at 16:03:49
In reply to Re: oh mah god things are challenging (to put nice » alesta, posted by allisonross on November 7, 2005, at 15:48:33
thanks y'all...i'd reply individually but i still need to really look at your responses...i can't bring myself to right now...but fairywings, allison, and philippa, please know that i appreciate it very, very much...:)
i am trying to break up with him tonite...i just can't take it anymore..i could be really happy and he will find a way to always make me sad/depressed. i just can't take it anymore. (i've spent more time with him the last week too, which could be why i'm suddenly starting to abruptly break down) he is destroying me. i now know for sure that he has narcissistic personality disorder, just like my mom, and one other boyfriend before him. i have to get away. i hope i am strong enough to do this. i better not talk too much about it, or i won't do it. sorry i am such a downer...and he is turning me into a vacuous soul, just like himself..no joy whatsoever...i can't let him do this to me! oh my god..i hope i can recover my happiness. (i felt like i had mastered happiness...even in the worst circumstances..he has changed all that.) sorry for going on..all i want to do is gripe and complain. i'm not sure if getting away from him is going to help me recover who i was. help.........(i'm not really asking for more help...it just felt like i needed to utter that word for some reason..it feels good to admit i am helpless in this circumstance..i have no clue as to why.:))
thanks for reading this....i'll feel better soon i'm sure...thank you......!!!
love,amy
poster:alesta
thread:576320
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20051029/msgs/576799.html