Posted by Deneb on July 31, 2005, at 22:12:52
In reply to Re: I *need* to do well in school » Deneb, posted by alexandra_k on July 31, 2005, at 21:29:31
> She might have an opening... She might be able to make an opening... You might have to wait a little bit... There is only one way to find out though. Is email an option?
No, I don't think email is an option. :-(
> I think therapy is more important. If you have someone who can do both then IMO that is best case :-)
I'm curious about all those p-docs people talk about who are all about meds. So far I haven't met any p-docs here who are like that. What do they learn in school anyways? Do they learn how to do therapy? Or is it a self taught thing?
> So maybe you need to sort out with her whether she is willing to make a regular committment to work with you.
I don't think I can work with her for a long time. I don't think she sees people on a long term basis. I think she usually sees students 2x a month. It was actually quite the shock for her to want to see me every week for a while. It is kind of difficult to get any issues sorted out when we see each other only every month or so.
> okay. has she read the books? maybe she could do some skills training with you???
I'm not sure if she's read the books but she knows about them.
> It must have been really hard for you when she went on leave :-(
> At least... It would have been really hard for me.Hmmm...actually it wasn't really that difficult. I don't think I get attached to people easily. I mean, I do care about her, but I don't need her to function or anything like that. I told her that I was worried about worrying her with all my suicidal behaviours. I didn't want to stress her out too much before having her baby. She told me that she wasn't stressed out by me. She said that I was only worrying myself!
I like how she keeps boundaries like that. I like how she never seems upset with me or freaks out. Once I took a mini OD and told her about it but she didn't freak out. She did make me throw the pills out in her office though. She made me throw out the cough syrup I used a while ago too.
> i think so...
> but i think its probably slower and more painful and incomprehensible than it needs to be with adequate assistance from professionals. and babblers, of course :-)Heehee, I love babblers. You guys help socialize me. I learn things that are obvious to other people but not to me!
>It is just that i can continue some semblance of functioning while inside everything is falling apart. life is still hell quite a lot of the time. but i can continue to function mostly...
Wow, that is quite a feat! I wish we didn't have to deal with those episodes in the first place. You seem very together to me and you have very good insight. Do you think maybe your problems are more based on nature rather than nurture?
> but i needed a lot of support to do that. you will get there.
I certainly hope so!
Deneb
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