Posted by Deneb on July 31, 2005, at 21:01:03
In reply to Re: I *need* to do well in school » Deneb, posted by alexandra_k on July 31, 2005, at 20:16:25
> > Ok, what do I have to do?
>
> When does semester start? August? Is it coming up at the end of this month? Enrolling could be a useful first step ;-)The fall semester starts in the beginning of Sept. I'm still enrolled, all I have to do is register my classes online, I can do it today or tomorrow.
> You need to phone up your old p-doc. Tell her that you really want to go back and you really want to do this. That you will do whatever it takes to get through and that you need a little help.I'm always afraid to phone her office up. Several times she had to make the appointment for me herself. Now that I think about it, I think she really does care about me, she was totally booked solid during my "crisis" but she squeezed me in every week. She can never show that she cares though because it might make me worst. I know I will have to leave a message...maybe I should do it today. It will take a long time to get a regular appointment with her, not sure what to do.
> Try and get therapy. Maybe your p-doc will be able to see you for therapy. Maybe not... If not then she might be able to refer you on to somewhere else.
My p-doc gives psychotherapy, she's not much of a meds person. I don't think it was working very well though, we never had enough time to do much of anything. I think I need something more practical than simply "talking about stuff."
> I'm not sure about this...
> But I think there should be councellors at your uni.
> And I'm even less sure on this...
> But I thought the student health coverage was pretty good in Canada.Counselling is free to all full time students. I saw a counsellor my first year, I didn't think we were going anywhere and she agreed that I should probably stick to seeing one person, my p-doc. I don't know what's with me and counselling...it never seems to "work" for me. I never know what to "do" in counselling...it just seems like a bunch of talking. I need something more practical...in easy to follow steps to solve my problems.
> Tell your p-doc about DBT and about how you have been hearing about how that could be helpful to you.
I did tell her about DBT. I don't think there's anything like that for me. I mentioned Linehan's works and she agreed that it might be good to read her books.
I just wish there where some simple steps to take in therapy to fix me. It just all seems like talking that goes nowhere...maybe I just don't "get" it yet.
My p-doc is pretty good at bringing me back to reality. She explains things to me in ways I understand. She even used Hammy as an example! She told me I should treat myself like I treat Hammy and not be so hard on myself. She also told me that blocks are like going to jail...I understand things the way she explains them. She's a nice p-doc. Actually, all the p-docs I've seen have been great, they are all nice people, or maybe they pretend to be nice? :-( I feel better after talking with her but I don't know if I make any long term progress...or maybe it's just really really slow progress.
I think I have to continue getting help...I want to get better not worst. Can people with a BPD get better by themselves? I just need to be stable long enough to actually be productive. How I wish I could be stable for a whole year! even a few months!
Hmmm...strange thing I just realized...it seems that most p-docs are good looking and easy going people...maybe that makes them more approachable and then this in turn makes them want to help others?
Deneb
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