In the Throws of Mania

Posted by AdaGrace on April 10, 2005, at 11:29:14

Or am I in the throws of depression?
Sometimes I can't seem to stop from going back and forth frequently during the day.
Life is so messed up.
We are messed up.
Mad, mad I tell you.
Mad as a Hatter, that's never going to change.
I digress.
I repeat myself.
40 and failing.
I'm 40 and failing at life,love,& the pursuit of happyness.
If I come here I just whine.
People are nice to me and I feel better for the attention, but then I don't know what to say next.
So I fail at communication.
I stay away from here and people miss me, but I don't post because I don't have anything to say.
What do I say?
I f'ed up my life, home, health, marriage, family?
I hate myself?
Well, yadda, yadda, yadda, how many times do I need to say it? I don't want to talk about it anymore. The solution is not happening because I won't allow it.

Help is so easily posted yet I won't listen.
Selfish, I am selfish. Extreemly so.

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In the Throws of Mania AdaGrace 4/10/05
Re: In the Throws of Mania » AdaGrace partlycloudy 4/10/05
Re: In the Throws of Mania AdaGrace 4/11/05
Happiness still exists for us » AdaGrace partlycloudy 4/11/05
Re: Happiness still exists for us » partlycloudy AdaGrace 4/11/05
Re: Happiness still exists for us » AdaGrace partlycloudy 4/11/05
Re: Happiness still exists for us » partlycloudy AdaGrace 4/12/05
((((AdaGrace)))) *poss trigger* partlycloudy 4/12/05
Re: ((((AdaGrace)))) *poss trigger* » partlycloudy AdaGrace 4/12/05
Re: ((((AdaGrace)))) *poss trigger* » AdaGrace Susan47 4/12/05
That's OK - I was just nervous, that's all. (nm) » AdaGrace partlycloudy 4/12/05
Re: ((((AdaGrace)))) sunny10 4/14/05
Re: ((((AdaGrace)))) » sunny10 Susan47 4/14/05
Re: ((((AdaGrace)))) » Susan47 sunny10 4/14/05
Re: ((((AdaGrace)))) » sunny10 AdaGrace 4/14/05
Re: ((((AdaGrace)))) sunny10 4/15/05
OK, who told you.... » sunny10 partlycloudy 4/15/05
Re: ((((AdaGrace)))) » sunny10 AdaGrace 4/15/05
Re: OK, who told you.... » partlycloudy AdaGrace 4/15/05
I think they are only available » AdaGrace partlycloudy 4/15/05
Re: I think they are only available sunny10 4/15/05
Re: I think they are only available » sunny10 partlycloudy 4/15/05

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