Posted by alexandra_k on December 5, 2004, at 1:48:44 [reposted on December 5, 2004, at 12:41:08 | original URL]
In reply to almost ready to end life, posted by jerrympls on December 4, 2004, at 22:39:06
> ugh..I have to go back to work on Monday....my parents stopped talking to me and so have my friends. My life is a disappointment. I'm scared I'm gathering more courage.....
I know that I think about whether I will commit suicide or not in terms of whether I will find the courage or not too. But then, for me the only reason why I sometimes contemplate suicide at all is becasue I am sick of all the pain and sick of the immense struggle that seems to be my life and I just am so desperate for a way to stop that.
I know that when people say this to me I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AT THEM - but here I go anyway: It will get better. I know that when things are low it can seem like ones life is always like that. And that the times in which I think things aren't so bad really - well, when I am in a bad place I just write that off as self deception and delusion.
But really, things do get better.
Things do remit.
That is why suicide is so tragic, because those intensely horrible feelings would most likely have passed and the person could have really gone on to have lived a fairly happy existence.It sounds like you have friends here who are still talking to you. I know it isn't the same as the real world. But people care.
Keep in touch.
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