Posted by AdaGrace on November 18, 2004, at 7:05:54
In reply to Sleeping and Tired and Hating Myself, posted by Soulnik on November 17, 2004, at 20:49:17
I too was struck by one line in your post about not wanting to die permanently, just until the pain was gone.
I so often want to go to sleep and not wake up until all the pain is gone.
I sometimes wander what it would be like to just be frozen for a few years and then thaw out to a brand new life.
Then again, I often wander what it would be like to just run away from my life and become a waitress in a greesy spoon somewhere in Arizona like "Alice Doesn't Live Here Anymore" Sorta my fantasy.
Anyway, what I have realized is, no matter how bad I think things are, death is probably worse, because I am afraid of death. I don't think I have attoned my sins as of yet, and I am pretty sure the big guy down stairs has a level of inferno for me that I might just not like. Something perhaps like me sitting in a bar where they don't serve alcohol and all there is for entertainment is people doing a really poor job of singing Patsy Cline's "Crazy" over and over and over again. Oh, and I am probably naked and lots of flesh is flapping and people are laughing at me.
Good grief, where did that come from?????
Okay, now for the advice. Try to get through today, and then try for tomorrow. Thinking too far into the future sometimes is too overwhelming and can stifle the person from doing even the tinyest task. Something to think about.
I care, we all care, and keep posting, it does help.
AdaGrace
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