Posted by AdaGrace on November 14, 2004, at 10:01:34
In reply to not coping, posted by alexandra_k on November 13, 2004, at 20:07:12
Sometimes I feel like I don't have any "real" problems like others here, and I am just being a selfish child. But then I remember what the therapist said. (you know the one I went to all of 3 times) "You can't get much lower.....you're at ground zero in the self esteem area".
That's been my problem all my life. That truth, that one tiny bit of truth is why I quit going to therapy. I didn't want to deal with that, I didn't want to work on that. After all, doesn't building self esteem turn someone into a selfish self centered individual? Probably not, but I can't convince myself of that. Working on myself would mean giving up the wallowing in self pitty, it would mean giving up the drinking, it would mean dealing with life. And I just can't deal with life.Now, Alexandra, for you.......
It appears that perhaps you posting on here is reaching out for help and it seems to be helping...so therefore you are not giving up. No?
Talk to me sweety, sharing war stories tends to make people feel better about themselves. Doesn't it? Is that misery loves company? Not really, perhaps it is that by hearing other's stories, your own don't seem so pathetic. And one begins to feel that by talking, helping, and advising others, you actually "FEEL" something. And by feeling something, you are living, not giving up.
Even if the living is through someone else, at least it is living.Can anyone tell I forgot to take my Lexapro last night?
AdaGrace, talking outside the box.
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