Posted by partlycloudy on September 10, 2004, at 7:15:50
In reply to getting sucked into posting, posted by octopusprime on September 9, 2004, at 23:56:58
I read your posts very carefully. I was certain you had broken into my own brain and were stealing my memories. I went through my pant-chasing time many years ago (I'm an old lady now), and I felt completely amoral about it. No guilt, no problem walking away, no problem picking someone else. There were lots of elements at play here: the knowledge I was doing thing that were considered immoral and wrong; the knowledge that what I was craving was intimacy, not sex; my marriage was such an emotional wasteland that I instinctively sought satisfaction, ahem, outside the household. I actually carried on a relationship for 10 years with someone I had worked with. He moved away and would fly back and see me; I moved overseas and he would write me letters; I moved back, he had been married, divorced, and remarried; then I got divorced and decided (finally) to end the relationship with him.
I didn't mean for this to sound so much like True Confessions, but I know now that I had this enormous emotional maw that I was trying to fill in any way I could, in the only way I could. I don't see that I could behave that way again, but I do not beat myself up over my past, either.
That's my rambling contribution, anyway...
take care
pc
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