Posted by Atticus on August 26, 2004, at 5:16:01
In reply to Re: My meds, posted by Susan47 on August 25, 2004, at 22:14:08
It's not whining, Susan. I can remember mornings, during the period when I had so many legal and illegal drugs in my bloodstream that I couldn't keep track, needing to gulp down a handful of Xanax just to tackle the "monumental" task of getting out of bed to face another workday. Even the simple tasks of shaving, brushing my teeth, showering, and getting dressed seemed like climbing Mount Everest. And then I'd hop the subway to work, disoriented, exhausted, wired, nervous, and thinking, "How in hell am I going to make it through the next eight hours? I am such a waste of space." The thing is, a lot of illegal drugs (and legal drugs like nicotine, which I also ingested constantly) are toxins that require your liver to focus on removing, and because your liver is so preoccupied with this, your meds aren't absorbed as well and therefore their effectiveness can be diminished (learned that in group in a lock-up psych ward after opening my wrist). I don't know if you're up for rehab at this point (and I feel weird even saying that -- I hate being preachy), but if you could cut back on the extracurriculars (no easy task, I know), maybe your meds would pack even more of a positive punch. Substance abuse on top of a mental illness is a horrible cycle to be caught up in, and I spent eight years there. Just give a shout if you want to talk some more. You don't need to put up any false fronts about how you feel around the people at Babble. :) Atticus
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