Posted by Susan47 on August 25, 2004, at 22:14:08
In reply to Re: My meds, posted by Susan47 on August 25, 2004, at 22:07:24
It just makes my life seem more exciting, more hopeful, more everything... but paranoid too. And I even get off on the paranoia. It's not like my life is even boring or anything, it isn't it's just depressed and lonely (but I don't want to make any efforts so that's my own fault I've always been like this it's nothing new, what's new is the activities I've been doing the last year which now I'm too scared to do again). I *know* it's in my head because people seem to like me well enough, I think. I just feel so hateful sometimes. Angry really, and I don't know what about. I mean, I just hate myself. I try and try not to. I'm not a stupid person, I just can't make decisions. I feel like my life is out of control sometimes, and other days I'll wake up and it'll be like, oh, I can do this, this is my *new* life. But like someone said, everywhere you go there you are. I'm really trying to like myself. Maybe it's just the weather. I'm sorry for whining. Thank you Atticus. I'm going over to the writing board now to look for your stuff. Ciao.
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