Posted by B2chica on August 2, 2004, at 11:54:08
ok, it's been almost five months now since i was in the hospital and i still can't force myself to watch any news programs...NONE! even if i'm surfing and i accidentaly get on a news station the anxiety shoots straight up, i get an adrenaline rush in my gut and i fumble the remote to hurry and change the station. just last week i was doing so and dropped the remote and they (of course) were talking about what's going on with the troops and i started singing outloud some stupid song i had in my mind to try to drown out the tv audio as i dropped to the floor to feel around for the stupid remote.
after i finally changed the station i just sat there a little stunned for a minute and it hit me that this just doesn't seem normal. it's like i'm scared of it. but it's that i just can't stand to hear any of it.
So tell me all, how long is too long? i guess i'm fine with not watching it, but do you all see this as wrong? or weird? or as a major problem?
Honestly i think it's just that it's always about death and pain and torture and i just can't stand it. i can't, i just can't. i want to just scream ENOUGH!thanks for input.
B2c.
poster:B2chica
thread:373162
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