Posted by DaisyM on June 11, 2004, at 10:42:08
In reply to Re: Racer and Antigua....any better?, posted by antigua on June 10, 2004, at 18:46:41
Antigua,
I think I understand the darkness. I told my T yesterday that he couldn't change what happened, he couldn't keep me safe from the memories and they were killing me. I wasn't effective at work, at home or anywhere else. I was driving and closed my eyes against a memory, and then remembered I was driving...
I called last night and for the first time EVER, he didn't call back. (OK, his answer system was all screwed up so even as I left the message I was pretty sure this was going to turn out bad) I took myself away from home because I was here alone and my "plan" involves stuff here. Eventually I signed into Open from my office and sucked support out of everyone there. I wish you could have been there too.
I realize I'm not helping. I just want you to know you aren't alone. And your kids need you. However you are. They love you and I'm sure you are doing the best you can with them. I keep telling myself this. Hang in there. I made Racer a deal that I would if she would. How about it?
Hugs from me.
Daisy
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