Posted by Penny on October 23, 2003, at 9:50:33
In reply to Re: Glad you're ok. That's what matters. (nm) » Penny, posted by Dinah on October 22, 2003, at 23:17:45
I feel soooo stupid. Just plain stupid and naive. It occurs to me that this will go down in my memory as one of those things that I won't let myself get over, in line with stupid things I did as a kid. And I can't even bring it up in therapy b/c it was so stupid.
I hate this. I'm so angry with myself for being so naive. I'm angry too that I have to be so cautious. Even though nothing bad happened.
I am SO angry with myself. And when I feel like this, I want to hurt myself. I want to cause myself more pain, physical pain. Or I just want to die. I'll hold it all in, as I'm at work, and my mood will probably continue to sink, and then I'll go to therapy and I won't even be able to talk about it.
P
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