Posted by KimberlyDi on September 30, 2003, at 6:34:40
In reply to I HURT I HURT I HURT I HURT, posted by KimberlyDi on September 29, 2003, at 9:25:58
That flood of support had me bawling this morning at work. 3:00am at work. God Bless you all.
Update: Couldn't get a cell phone because I had to stop my payment agreement on hospital bills the %^(^#$@#$&^!!!! insurance wouldn't pay and it all showed up as recent bad marks. Anyways, the cell phone company wanted to charge me a $750.00 deposit. Curses on them!!!!! <deep breath>
My puppies are okay so far and we all slept together on the floor.
At work, I had to go to my supervisor and ask for help. He's spoken with the owner and my soon-to-be-ex-hubby (STBEH). All help requests routed thru Supervisor. No emails to me allowed. STBEH has calmed down, for now. He goes in cycles of silence, calm, rage and threats, silence, pain and tears, repeat. I've never pushed him past 2 cycles before. I don't know if it escalates or abates.
I relapsed briefly with my drinking problem, not a huge surprise, but I think I'll be ok now. I'm seeing my pdoc today at 4:00 and I'm going to ask her for something extra, just for 4 days, to help me calm down at work, and sleep at night.
Electricity will be on today! hurrah!
It's early and I'm here at work. He calls me on the work phone because there's no one else here to answer the phone and he knows I have to. "Is there any way we can work this out?" I'm afraid to say no because then he rages that I must be having an affair. I tell him that there's a 30 or 60 day waiting period for a divorce for just that purpose. Let people think it over.
Gotta go. He's heading into work and now my stomach is tied up in knots.
Thanks again
KDi in Texas
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thread:264196
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