Posted by Emmaley on September 15, 2003, at 17:02:56
In reply to Motivation, posted by fallsfall on September 15, 2003, at 15:14:29
Ouch, I can relate.
From reading this board though, I can see that you have generously left so many messages that are genuine and helpful (thank you for responding to my post....:) And I wonder what motivates you to do such beautiful things for others? I find that very admirable, especially if you are feelings down from time to time.
On another note, I often feel the same way that you do. For some reason, sometimes it takes all of my strength to just do one little thing, and I judge myself (more and more aware of it) for being like that...... Many times, it is also external circumstances that help me get going; my support network helps me to remember that I do want to continue, and unfortunately/fortunately taking care of myself with these little details is part of continuing. I don't really know where my motivation comes from, really. On a good day, I feel like it comes from something inside and divine and I wish that it would last forever....but it doesn't, since change is always omnipresent. On a bad day, it feels like it's gone in hiding and I have looked all over my house and I couldn't find it.......so I might get angry or sob, or try to go on, waiting for it to come out. (And I go to therapy.....)
Thank you for putting your feelings out here for us to share.
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