Posted by Penny on September 11, 2003, at 13:45:38
I'm sitting here, at work, crying b/c my roommate just emailed me to let me know that cable will be turned off in our apartment on Sept. 25. I am so angry and frustrated right now I can barely stand it.
I know this is stupid, but I really feel like she's doing this to punish me. I'm not a huge television junkie, but she knows I'm not moving until Oct. 1 (she's moving the weekend before) and she knows that the season premieres come on that week, and she knows that there's one in particular that I've been waiting to see, and she knows that without cable we can't pick up any channels in our area.
Next thing you know, she'll be telling me that the electricity will be turned off on the 30th (the day BEFORE I move out). Then I'll really go off.
I've been teary all day anyway, and it just seems like she's trying her best to make this move as hard as it possibly can be. And I just can't take it. I may call the apartment office and tell them that I want to move as soon as possible, and see how quickly they can get me in there, and then tell her that she needs to be out sooner than she planned. She's been doing it to me, moving everything up earlier and earlier, so maybe she deserves a taste of her own medicine. But that's passive-aggressive, and not healthy. Still, I'm so &*#$! tired of being pushed around by her.
I'm just feeling really low and over-emotional right now. Can't even concentrate. Am ready to scream. Part of it is the weaning off of the meds, I know, part of it is Sept. 11, part of it is this friggin' move, part of it is money - it's many things wrapped up into one. And it's really getting to me. I feel out of control and like I'm going crazy. And there's just so much anger building up right now and no healthy way (that I can see) of releasing it.
At least I have therapy tonight.
:-((
P
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