Posted by Snoozy on July 23, 2003, at 23:54:00
In reply to Is it possible..........., posted by tina on July 23, 2003, at 21:27:42
I have experienced two kinds of depression in my life. When I was younger, it was more of an incredibly intense, very emotional, always crying type. More recently it's been more of a cerebral type of depression. But through both of them I desperately wish I had never existed. I don't really want to kill myself, but to have never been alive.
One of my favorite lyrics that sums it up pretty well: and when I'm lying in my bed/I think about life and I think about death/and neither one particularly appeals to me
I would bet a lot of people feel this way (or else I have a very jaundiced view of things!) I've always had this thing in my head of thinking that I won't be alive in 5 years (going back at least 10). Not that I'm planning anything, but it's too much to think about being alive another 40 + or whatever years.
I think the main reason I wish I had never been alive is to spare my family from the pain if I did kill myself.
Ummmm, can I return the unused portion for a refund?
I wish I had something more comforting to say, other than that you're not alone.
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