Posted by tina on July 23, 2003, at 22:39:10
In reply to Re: Is it possible..........., posted by Dinah on July 23, 2003, at 22:03:46
It's wonderful to be able to count on someone Dinah. thank you for giving me that.
I define MY depression as not being able to get out of bed, not being interested in anything, crying all the time, being sad and suicidal.
I don't feel that. I am exercising, working, keeping my house clean. I have sad moments but who wouldn't when their marriage has just ended. I don't feel suicidal either. I just want to never have existed. Have all the people I have ever known just lose their memories of me. TO never have been born at all. It seems rational to me. Maybe that breakdown I was expecting has actually happened, I don't know. I don't feel depressed like I have in the past. I just feel like I shouldn't have been here in the first place. It's all been a huge mistake and maybe the powers that put me here will take me back again.
Crazy?? To some maybe but I don't feel at all confused or depressed. I'm just ready for the end, that's all.
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