Posted by sienna on March 15, 2003, at 21:27:47
In reply to Sienna, posted by bozeman on March 14, 2003, at 0:16:45
Hi
i do know what you mean and i do feel that way. I apperciate you taking the time to write to me. I need to hear those things. Im sure that is biochemical you are right. I just as much as i think that it can be that the feelings are real and i know i am sick but i think i am horrible too and that they are both are real. I cant say all the thigns i really believe because i just get labeled but the drugs dont help and they just chantge them all the time adding this subteacting this take more of this. I only felt better with zoloft but i think could take more but i cant because whne i did becofore i got more psychotic and so i cant have anymore.
but im afraid of all of this. part of me wish that i was never born but that is so sad and i really dont wish that but part of me does. How can you feel two totally different ways all the time. All the time i have this dichotomy? love hate bad good smart stupid creative not boring interesting im so tired i just cant do it much longer. and it feels like it will be such a sad but relief and i wont be scared anymore.
sienna
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