Posted by sienna on March 12, 2003, at 20:05:02
In reply to Re: which is it? » sienna, posted by Dinah on March 12, 2003, at 19:06:41
Hi Dinah,
Thanks for tha reassurance. I hope your migraine goes away. I feel like Im pretending to be an adult. Is there a age where you finally feel grown up? Or is it always watching people buy houses and talk about the stock market and wonder when you will ever have a *real* job. Well i dont even have a fake job right now im on disability, but it runs out in
may.I guess i am not so different from many people though i feel like i am so alone in my head. I feel like im an alien from outer space. like people cant understand me. Luckily i live with a bunch of artists in a compound and most of them are nutso too. I dont nkowhwat i would do if i had to move. Im isolated enough even though all my friends live here.
Also its like i want to believe that i can finish college and graduate school, but what am i studying>? hehe Psychology to go into that or psychiatry and how am i going to do that when i am a hallucinating paranoid depressed nonsense speaking mess? I dont know what is going to happen to me when my last and final plan B doesnt work out. I feel that the end is near.
Sienna
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