Posted by Kam on January 5, 2003, at 18:50:05
In reply to Re: what its like being a bad machine, posted by kid a on January 5, 2003, at 16:56:44
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> all my life mental illness has been a voice on my shoulder, whispering, "you're no good", "you're not one of them", "you're inhuman", "you will live this way forever"...
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> my thought patterns change over the years, in some ways im a lot stronger now... but i still feel alienated, cant/dont call back people who call, two messages today, and i put it off...
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> when im out and arround people im fine, no agoraphobic (is that the right word), but at home, i have some sort of natural dread of the phone ringing, unless its one of the few people who i can talk to...
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> being possesed is a bitch, where is a honest catholic priest when you need him.
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> all my love.Alii,
Is there an honest catholic priest? Just kidding, my husband is catholic so I can get away with it! It's great to hear your stronger now over the years. But what is it that makes you feel "you are not one of them"? We are all individuals just as you are. Maybe it's as simple as "when I'm home" it's my time don't bother me. I want my space, there certainly isn't anything wrong with that.
poster:Kam
thread:34650
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