Posted by alii on July 17, 2002, at 17:16:06
In reply to Re: death accomplishment (an unfinished poem), posted by mair on July 17, 2002, at 11:50:40
>>That sort of keeps it in the realm of dreaming and out of the realm of the "good idea."<<
Mair--
The clarity my mind feels sans the medications cannot be described. And it does bring about the confusing choices as to what constitutes a good idea versus one that brings about more harm.
Good ideas? eating and staying hydrated, getting some sun and fresh air, painting, finding myself smiling when listening to music for the first time in AGES because it is once again touching that part of me inside that is usually dulled by the meds
Bad ideas? waiting any longer to take my meds, not calling the pdoc, not finding a therapist, not going to acupuncture, not being honest with oneself about the reality of life without meds
I know the inevitable bump in the road ahead but for now golly feeling alive while sinking is better than a life lived under the haze of meds.
--Alii
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