Posted by Cam W. on December 28, 2001, at 16:56:42
In reply to I don't think I'm depressed... so what am I??, posted by NikkiT2 on December 17, 2001, at 13:03:54
Geez Nik - For cryin' out loud, yer a Brit, what do you expect? Just the thought of mushy peas.... =^P
Seriously, sounds like you are a little melancholic. I can relate. Try reading the Bard's Hamlet. Read it closely, especially his lines, and see if you can relate to the overall feel.
Or try Thomas More's Utopia (I don't recommend trying to read it in the original Latin, nor in the original 1550's translation < shiver >). Penguin Classics has a fairly recent (1965) version translated by Paul Turner. More may have been excessively puritanical (even for a Brit....but he was from London and attended Oxford - know what I mean?) but he saw life for what it really is (and it still is applicable today). Even More's life is a statement (and warning to us all): "Morals are fine and dandy, but you needn't lose your head over them."
Also, another old book, that is still apropos today is Cervantes' Don Quixote. Read that and you decide who's crazy (it ain't the Don).
Now ya got me doin' it Nik. I'm rambling...shit! We've all done things that we're embarrased about, and would give anything to reverse. The arrow of time don't allow that to happen (regardless of what some in The Fortean Times say). To anyone that you feel uncomfortable to face because of one of these incidents, ya gotta say (to yerself mind you), "F*** you dickhead, you've probably made a bigger ass of yourself at some point in you life, .... and if you haven't you're gonna!" I think that just puts everything in perspective. We're all fallible, sweetie.
Yeah, loved ones ARE going to die .... when you very least expect it! Shit happens! And you ain't going to be able to stop the world when it does; people will still laugh, cry, give up ..... as they always have and always will. So, what do you do? Just suck it up and continue? Like hell you do! You will feel sorry for yourself. You will lash out at people around you (if you're lucky they're not your loved ones). I mean, can't they see your pain! How the hell can they keep living their lives .... as if nothing happened!?
So, whaddaya do, Nik? Keep watchin' for it? It WILL happen; "shit happens" to all of us! As you can see, I haven't answered any of the questions that I posed. That's because I have no answers ..... guess that's life, huh? We can dwell on the 98% of our life that is shit, or we can focus on the 2% that makes us happy. We have no other choice. We are all going to be "worm farms" some day, but why be in a hurry to make a worm happy (he's going to end up with a formaldehyde hangover, anyway)?
Nik, I look at it this way. Yes, it would be easier to say "F*** It! That's it, stick a fork in my ass and turn me over, I'm done!" But, if you think about it, I mean "really" think about, suicide is extremely selfish. How many people do you think your suicide (or anyone's suicide) affects? Pick a number .... then multiple by ten. Remember, it not only affects those that knew you, it also affects those that know the people that knew you, albeit indirectly; but there is still a ripple effect. (Listen to "Ripple" by the Grateful Dead on GD Radio, on their website - http://www.gratefuldead.com - it's free to download 169 songs - remember, they're not an "psychedelic band", they were just a bunch of guys who tried to play music while stoned - sometimes it worked). It is so much easier to dwell on the 2%; because if there is an afterlife (and if there is, I'm pretty much screwed) I'm comin' after you. Besides, who else can I bug about The Fortean Times, mushy peas, Ricky Whatsisname - the fembot singer, and (what was the name of the area near you? ... Mildred's Bush? ... Gertrude's Cervix? ... I can't remember).
What keeps me here (I mean besides my wife and daughter - not the dog ... today, anyway - she ate about a kilo of peanuts .... I'll let everyone else fill in the rest)? It's fairly simple why I am still here after all the shit I've endured .... I might miss something cool (like the Clinton Library being donated subscriptions to Mad Magazine and Hustler - now there's a patriot!). Maybe we should send Oral Roberts University a Skeptical Inquirer subscription.
Okay, that's way too much rambling, and I gotta change the CD. Hmmmm.... How 'bout some classic Iggy Pop and the Stooges played at 80% volume (that should send the dog downstairs - man, she didn't even chew the damn things ... she's makin' peanut logs, and X-mas is over!).
Okay sweetie, turn that frown upside down (eg. picture Tony Blair the night his latest baby was conceived - think his ears wiggled?).
Talk to ya soon - Love Cam
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