Posted by adamie on December 28, 2001, at 12:03:01
In reply to I don't think I'm depressed... so what am I??, posted by NikkiT2 on December 17, 2001, at 13:03:54
what you have is too much negativity. this is a huge problem. you may have some sort of depression because the way you feel just isn't normal. you should be able to see all the positives in life. but of course mental illness prevents you. you need to seek some treatment.> OK, been doing alot of pondering and reading recently, and have come to a few thoughts...
>
> I don't think I'm actually depressed as such... I'm never tearful, I adore the cuddles and love of my husband, I enjoy reading books... But i can just so no utter point in 98% of things.. There is no point in the future. I don't dwell on the past (other than those oh so embarrasing things I've done) and there is nothing in my life I would change.
> I just fail to see the point of being alive. If I live any longer I'll live to see things i won't be able to cope with. i will end up seeing all the bad things in the world... eg, if I walk down to the shop I will see someone hit by a car.. If I live to next year someone I love will die... Does this make sense??
> It is such a damn burden some days I can barely move. I am constantly looking for situations where these bad things will occur, I have to be 100% alert of every little thing around me, and this makes me ache with the tension of it. If I take my mind off it for one single minute then something will happen.
>
> This is turning into a bit of a ramble, but does anyone know what i mean??
>
> Nikkixx
poster:adamie
thread:15692
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20011216/msgs/15970.html