Posted by Anna Laura on December 6, 2001, at 6:15:20
In reply to I want to get high., posted by christophrejmc on December 6, 2001, at 0:45:50
> I haven't truly been happy since age nine. I've been on numerous antidepressants. I've never experienced "euphoria" or anything close (I've tried--sex, marijuana, amphetamine, alcohol, Xanax, a few other "soft" drugs). (Could there be a biological reason for this?) I get some pleasure from non-drug activities, but no medicine has ever improved my mood. I'm not looking for an easy way out--just a way out. If I had access to something like heroin, I think I would take that route. I don't mean to bitch, but I'm just so sick of feeling like crap and I think I deserve to whine once in a while. Why can't we be treated like pain patients - I could use some morphine too. Hrm, ignore this post.
I believe your motifs are valid because one has the right to try any susbstance in order to ease his/her pain; some people try to persuade us not to do so in many ways, telling us that doing drugs is morally wrong or, in a more subtle way, by saying that pain doesn't have to be avoided in order to learn things or make us more mature and aware about life issues. I personally believe the pain related to mental illness is the worst of all, robbing you of your identity, dignity and of all the things you value most as love for your mate or family, ideals, ambition, self-esteem, and first of all, the meaning of life itself, casting you in a land of utter despair without anything to rely on, deprived of the things that make you a human being.
Nonetheless, i'd definetely not think about morphine cause there are many drugs out there that are safer and better than that, and last but not least, legal. Morphine or heroin might be pleasurable the first times you try them, but as times goes by your body gets used to it and doesn't respond to the drug AT ALL ; furthermore you develop addiction adding another problem to the other ones you already have; people with mental illness often self-medicate with heroin but it never works; the problem is not addiction, but tolerance since our brain has not been designed to produce a lasting pleasurable condition. I think that this mechanism is related to the opiod receptor in our system. If you really want to try something i advice you to look for a drug which would produce ever lasting results.
You may want to check out this site:
www.biopsychiatry.com
poster:Anna Laura
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