Posted by akc on December 4, 2001, at 12:42:53
I stand here feeling so miserable. Full of sadness, fear, aloneness, shame. Overwhelmed by all the feelings. Desperately wanting relief. I have two ways I can go -- my way, seeking immediate relief of some sort -- or trusting my therapist, and sitting in this misery. On one level I know I need to trust and endure. But on another level, I don't know if I can.
I know this is not some type of horrible physical pain that I'm seeking relief from -- I almost wish it were -- there would be no guilt or shame in asking for a pill, or if it was so awful, the end. I don't have the strength. It is too much.
akc
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