Posted by dreamer on June 27, 2001, at 8:15:34
In reply to Should i feel responsible for my anhedonia?, posted by Anna Laura on June 27, 2001, at 2:25:09
> Hi all
>
> I talked to my pdoc (he is a psychopharmacologist actually) yesterday afternoon.
> I was supposed to call him to tell him about the effectiveness/side effects of the drugs he prescribed me weeks ago. Since i didn't get any benefits, i was quite sure he was going to make me switch the actual drug regimen and put me on another one.
> He told me i had to stand up and react instead. I told him the drugs made sleepy up to the point i was barely able to do my job: he told me it wasn't the drug but me being bored from what i was doing instead.
> He told me i had to work hard on myself trying to find some kind of stimulus and appealing/interesting things to do in order to switch my state of mind.
> I told him that since i was anhedonic i was not enjoying anything whatsoever, so that it was unlikely to find appealing things to do.
> I didn't like his attitude also: he sounded like a parent scolding the daughter.That really p***** off. When i hang up the phone i felt kind of guilty and responsible for feeling anhedonic.
> Right now i'm puzzled: is it really my fault?
> If i make efforts and i go out at night
> instead of staying at home i don't get any real benefits; Sometimes i don't even talk to friends and get absent-minded instead. That's because i'm so bored of everything! Most of the times i end up longing for bed or laying on the couch watching tv.
> What do you think? Am i really supposed to strive to reach out for appealing things? Should i be forcing myself to do things or do i need another kind of medication instead? My personal insight is that i need to find a drug to start me up: i feel like a car that needs to be pushed in order to get the engine started.
> I' don't believe in the magic pill, i know i've to work hard on myself also, but i need to get started up first in order to do things. I believe my anhedonia being out of control so far.
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> Any input will be appreciated
>
>
> Anna LauraHi Anna,
If in the past you were motivated to take part in life before you got ill then it's the drugs or depression still hanging around.
My meds sedate sometimes it's as if I'm 4 times as heavy and I sleep ALOT and must seem lazy
Don't blame yourself, your doc sounds like he has adhedonia towards his patients .
Could it be you need time for yourself to enjoy own company?
Social life is still there if you want it but only when you want it
I've spent time isolating myself and only now thinking that I may need company also not the usual lifestyle that I had in the past and I'm taking my time.
Do bang on about the meds making you sleepy if you have to maintain your job it's your DOCS responsibility for your anhedonia.
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