Posted by ksvt on November 27, 2000, at 7:40:41
In reply to Argh!, posted by Racer on November 26, 2000, at 21:04:27
> Your torment sounds like the torment of one headed into a job interview, not one headed into a job. You've already made it through the really hard part. Obviously these folks had a good enough feeling about you to hire you. They clearly didn't think you were all the really nasty things you say you are, because those things do make a difference to employers and would have made a difference to their decision to hire you. Just try to remember - decisions about whether an employer/employee relationship are going to work are rarely made, and can rarely be predicted right away. Try not to attach too much significance to how things go these first few days. If they go well, that should give you some confidence, but if they seem iffy, that's probably more the norm anyway. Let us know how it goes. ksvt
Miserable again. This is getting really old.
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> So, the meds haven't changed, but suddenly I just find everything in life too much for me. Hell, showering is an accomplishment, why can't I go back to bed after working that hard?
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> I start a new job tomorrow. Yesterday, my SO took me shopping and bought me new clothes, spent more money on my wardrobe than I'd spent in the last five years put together. He even bought me a bottle of cologne, Guerlain even! Still, I'm the most hideous creature, fat ugly stupid sloppy useless worthless, and all that. Don't forget so screwed up that even drugs aren't enough to help. THis is where that wretched doctor's words come back: 'the drugs are working fine, but you've got so many problems, drugs won't help you.'
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> On top of it all, I'm so afraid that this is going to ruin this job for me, which puts even more pressure on me.
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> OK, who wants to step in and fix my brain? C'mon, someone, anyone? Please?
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