Posted by Racer on November 26, 2000, at 21:04:27
Miserable again. This is getting really old.
So, the meds haven't changed, but suddenly I just find everything in life too much for me. Hell, showering is an accomplishment, why can't I go back to bed after working that hard?
I start a new job tomorrow. Yesterday, my SO took me shopping and bought me new clothes, spent more money on my wardrobe than I'd spent in the last five years put together. He even bought me a bottle of cologne, Guerlain even! Still, I'm the most hideous creature, fat ugly stupid sloppy useless worthless, and all that. Don't forget so screwed up that even drugs aren't enough to help. THis is where that wretched doctor's words come back: 'the drugs are working fine, but you've got so many problems, drugs won't help you.'
On top of it all, I'm so afraid that this is going to ruin this job for me, which puts even more pressure on me.
OK, who wants to step in and fix my brain? C'mon, someone, anyone? Please?
poster:Racer
thread:3297
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