Posted by Dasypodidae on November 24, 2000, at 9:39:54
In reply to Re: Suicidal Feelings, posted by Noa on November 22, 2000, at 12:56:18
Thanks Noa. You gave me just the little nudge I needed to try and be a little more aggressive in treating this. I have tried lots of things and seen a psychopharmacologist whose name shows up on lists of the good ones here and there. But I guess it's time to keep on trying :) I think I had fallen into the trap of thinking suicide was the treatment of last resort rather than a symptom of the depression. I'm talking to my Pdoc later today and I am going to try and come up with a new stategy.
Thanks to shar and ksvt too for helping me rethink things. Good luck.
Where do I start--these last few posts are about so much. I'll start here with one topic, and post about others in another post.
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> Unrelenting suicidal feelings are oppressive. An oppressive life. Maybe I am wrong, but I have to think that it is worth continuing the search for a better med combo to ease this opression.
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> I guess at this point, I don't expect myself to never experience any suicidal thoughts or feelings, but I do expect to have periods without them, in fact I expect to have most days of my life without them. Sure, when I think about it, they are in there, deep down and can be brought up sometimes. I am not "rid" of them. But I think you all deserve to live life without them on the surface all the time.
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> I know you have each worked very hard to try to find the right combo of meds and have worked hard in therapy, too. So, encouraging you to keep the search up is not meant to imply that you haven't been searching.
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> Last year, I never would have believed it possible to be free of that oppression. But here I am--not "rid" of the suicidal thoughts put away somewhere, quieted somehow, but I am free of the oppression of not being able to tolerate myself each waking moment I live.
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> If your pdoc is weary, it is time to consult a consultant for new ideas you and your pdoc can try.
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